so far this week, i:

saw a movie with teria
practiced with fox van cleef twice
went to see Loom with matone, dustin, and ryan
played two shows in the same night
bought a round of shots while drunk, regretted spending so much later
have not gone to bed before 2am
expressed how much i am hating the way my company is doing things right now many times
have been exhausted


so many things have happened to me in the past four months.

I went to her house. We planned on watching a movie. Her stereo was faintly playing an ipod on shuffle. We didn't do anything but lay on her bed entwined. Iron & Wine's cover of the Postal Service came on, and we began kissing very softly and slowly. Afterwards, Tool came on and we both started laughing without restraint.

We went to Serina's and played Life with her roommates. Afterwards, we got in my car and I showed her Grouper. We listened and held each other. Just held each other, making out and listening to some ambient drone.

Things are developing nicely. I'm excited to see where this goes. It's been a while!

Life as of right now is marvelous. I couldn't ask for anything better. The past couple of weeks have been absolutely amazing:
I've been having so much fun now that finals are over. I got an A in my math class, and a B- in my political science class (re-took it, up from a D).
I met a beautiful girl who I am growing very fond of. I took her out to dinner on my birthday and she bought me a present, Fugazi's Instrument DVD, which I've been looking to get myself for quite some time. we found a used copy of it at Graywhale, and she snagged it and bought it for me, despite my protests. Afterwards we sort of watched it at her place.
I got the most happy birthdays I've ever received in a single day on my birthday yesterday. I started getting text messages from phone numbers I didn't recognize saying happy birthday. It was awesome.
Matone is the best roommate I could ever ask for. I love living in salt lake city again, and I couldn't have asked for better company.
My job is the most flexible and relaxed job ever. Great pay and benefits, and I work on my own terms. Driving in the snow sucks a dong, but it's such easy work, so I don't mind a bit.

All in all, life is absolutely fantastic. I am incredibly grateful for all that I've been fortunate enough to experience as of late. It is wonderful.

Figured I should write something about myself, right now.

Right now, life is swell. Life is about as good as I could ask for right now. Intimachine has been playing house shows in Ogden once every other week or so, alongside it's regular schedule of shows. Been lots of fun at those house shows, lots of drinking, partying, awesome people, etc. It's been real fun for sure. This is what I love about local music.. a bunch of people coming together and enjoying music together.

This friday we played a show, and I ended up sleeping on the floor of the house, with a girl named Ally curled up next to me. We kissed and cuddled and all was great. Alcohol may have been involved. I really don't know this girl all that well, but she's pretty cool, and seems to be into me. Sadly, her being into me is one of the more appealing factors I find in a woman anymore. I don't know what will become of all this, and I'm not sure it matters.

I'm taking two classes at weber state right now. Math 1010 and re-taking Political Science 1100. I'm doing stellar in my math class, but not so hot in my PolSci class. I've discovered I have difficulty reading and comprehending what I've just read. So I can read my text book all I want, but I'll try to think back and remember what I read, and it's difficult for me. Really difficult. I let my mind wander when I'm reading, far too much. Something I need to work on, I guess.

Living with Mom and Dad still.. not too bad for the moment. It's starting to wear on me though. We'll see how long it lasts. If I do move, I'd sure like to get it done before the winter strikes...

Lately more than ever, it feels like my actions and efforts mean so little in this world. Like, my existence is entirely inconsequential to anyone or anything. It's a pretty dreadful feeling. I'm not sure what has spurred it, or why.

In any case, more than anything right now, I need a change in my life. I feel stuck, trapped, or locked in. I don't mean Barack Obama change, I mean like, I just need to get the fuck away. Not on vacation. But permanently. I'm feeling very flustered, very closed up and stifled. My chest actually feels like it's caving in right now.

ahhh, my life is great right now. i need to relax. i think i just need to sleep more.

I won't be able to find a place to live before this weekend when I gotta move. I'm going to have to live with my parents until I can find a place, which HOPEFULLY won't be too long.

I'm moving back to Ogden!
My job at Cardon Healthcare just got an opening in Ogden. I am going. I'm registered for SLCC, but I'm going to drop out and go back to weber.

I'm so fucking happy.

I haven't been up this early by choice in YEARS!

though, i'm not sure I fell asleep by choice.

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Solid progressions!!

The Rubik's cube never fails to wrack my brain. bahhh

So our run of shows is over for the time being. We've played 6 shows in the past month. Some lame battle of the bands, an awesome cinco de mayo party, an intense show at mojo's, a rad house show with loom/reviver, a lame show at the avalon, and a fun-as-hell show at the Boing house downtown. That last show was kind of a last-minute spur of the moment show, and was entirely worth it. In any case, it's been pretty taxing on all of us. It'll be nice to have a break in playing for a minute. our next show is the 31st somewhere in the middle of the desert. that's about all i know of it.
Makes me think, this must be what touring is like. Except alot more shows and driving. and cheap hotels. and fast food. so, really not like touring at all. but just the whole exhausting nature of it is similar.

I went to mojo's last night. Ron has been out of town, so the kids who work there have just been hanging out there every night. Alena invited me over. Everyone was gettings stoned in the basement, people were drinking. People were jamming, there was a drumset and guitar there. It was a pretty rocking environment. I couldn't stay long, though. I had to be home before too late. So uh, nothing happened really, other than I hung out with some cool people for a while. It was good to see Alena, too.

I've been wanting to move to Ogden lately, and everyday I'm finding less and less reason not to just quit my job and find a house there with my band. I want to be able to practice in my own living room. i want to have house shows.
the whole commuting thing is getting really old, in any case.